I have a feeling in my heart, a strong feeling… that Evelyn is going to be something else when she grows up. Because she has always had a mind of her own and not only that… but one of the most creative little minds I could ever imagine. And therein lies the challenge with parenting this little girl of mine. She doesn't necessarily want anything to do with all of the feedback, guidance, nagging, reprimanding, what have you… all of these parenting approaches. She'd much rather be left to her own devices. And I guess to be perfectly honest, I am a bit controlling. So, it doesn't come naturally to me… to allow her the vast space she'd prefer to take on the world alone.
Lately, it's been more challenging than ever in regards to all the various tasks I'd like her to complete and the rules I'd like her to follow. I need her to be responsible for her own homework, to practice her piano, to complete her chores, to be kind to her siblings, etc., etc. And frankly, the energy it requires to extract from her all of these tasks exhausts me beyond words! Parenting books, websites, advice from family have all helped. But as is always the case… I know that prayer is the best answer. Especially in regards to parenting.
So, I've asked God to help me understand how to do it all better. And I'm still waiting for His answer. I'm certain it will come. I have no doubt…. because it's so very important to me and to Him that she feel loved, and guided, and become all that she is meant to become. Yes, Evelyn is an amazing little person. I admire her, I love her, and I feel privileged to be her mother. She makes motherhood a more deliberate type of activity for me. A challenge from week to week, unlike other children of mine. But that's ok… I must go with it, keep an open mind and allow myself also to grow into the best Mom I can be. No easy feat, but achievable through a loving God. Don't worry….I'll update this post one day soon; you know, when I have all the answers!
All of the parenting books I've been reading lately!!!
